It's been three years since my stem cell plant. I'm still alive! I'M STILL ALIVE! It's fading in my memory. I still think about it almost every day. It doesn't seem as immediate. I know cancer will always be a threat. I think I'll be lucky to see 65. But I think I can be confident about the next 10 to 15 years. That's kind of depressing, I don't think about it too often.
Peter just turned four this week. I was worried that if I died, he wouldn't have any memories of me. I am so grateful to be with Christina and my children. I'm so grateful that my recovery has been so strong. I feel more healthy than I did before my transplant. Because I'm not having episodes of vomiting that last for hours.
Life is so fragile. Love is so important. Families are forever. Being kind is more important than being right.
We went camping at La Wis Wis near Mt. Rainier last month. It was a great campout. We were with the Jacks and Phil and Mike's families. We hiked up a stream near the campground and found a little waterfall that emptied into a hollow in the rock. The hollow was about 10' x 6' with a deep pool. I'd guess around 12' deep. We were sliding down the rock into the pool. The water was cold! I lost my wedding ring while swimming out. I'd pretty much given up on seeing it again, but Brian (Jacks) went back last weekend with his brother and some diving gear and retrieved it. He loves adventure!
There is a spot in the river at the campground called the Blue Hole. It's very deep at one point and lined with a cliff on one side. I've been telling myself all year that I'd jump from the highest point on the cliff. It's probably close to 30 feet. I did it! Again- COLD!
Video: Cliff jumping at the Blue Hole
We dropped Megan off at BYU-I ten days ago. I miss my daughter. I'm glad we went together as a family to Rexburg. It was good to spend time all together. When we visited the campus I felt that it was the right place for her to be. I know it's time for her to move on to the next stage in her life. She's the same age I was when I left for my mission. I'm glad that we can call her and text her often. She's a ways away, but still connected to our family.
Christina pointed out that we're sort of at the top of the hill with our children. We've spent the last nineteen years bringing them into the world and raising them. One by one they've come into our home and one by one they'll begin leaving.
Is time still linear for Celestial beings? Is that what it means to have a perfect recollection? If time is never-ending, can we go back and re-experience things? Forever seems like an awful long time to live. Would we get bored after a few thousand years? Could we be born again only without our memories so that we could add new experiences to our consciousness?
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