For my centurions

When a roman centurion asked Jesus to heal his servant, the Savior responded that he would come to his home immediately.  The centurion replied that Jesus need not come to his house for he was unworthy.  But he believed that the Savior had the power to heal his servant from where he stood.

I used this story for family scripture study tonight.  I feel a bit like the servant in the story.  I have many centurions asking with faith that I might be healed, and I know that the Savior has the power to answer those prayers.  I thanked our children for their faith and prayers in my behalf.

I love the gospel.  I love that there are new things to learn and apply to ourselves now matter what our circumstances or trials we go through.  I am so grateful for the comfort of the spirit which I feel.

I really think I'm going to make it.  I feel that is what the Lord wants from me.  But if not, I know that I won't be alone.  That my family won't be alone.  That the Savior will be there for us and that things will be okay.  I'd heard people say similar things as they went through trials and I always wondered if it were true or if people just have a tendency to grab harder onto their faith when faced with tragedy.

For me, it has absolutely been true.  Any cynicism, any lingering doubts have just been melted away by a stronger force.  A feeling that the Lord knows who I am and that he loves me and that things will be okay in the end.  I feel that His love is surrounding my family and keeping us safe.  I want to do whatever it takes to keep this feeling with us.  I know that there is a chance that it will fade as we get into a new routine of dealing with cancer and returning in some ways to normal.  But I want to keep it bright!